I turned 30 in November. I always thought by 30 I would have life figured out… well.. not so fast.
(one of my favorite quotes, ever)
What I have figured out:
-Turning 30 was a huge reality check… kind of like a slap in the face.
-Time moves really fast.
-Family is really important
-I still have a long way to go with my self confidence
-I am an athlete and will be for life… no matter how old.
-I found a hobby I love and that I am proud of… Triathlon
-I love to cook and I think I am quite good at it.
-It’s hard to make girlfriends as a 30-something
-I’m definitely an introvert… (Maybe this explains the above)
What I haven’t figured out:
I feel lost. I apologize in advance for the rambling, but it’s kind of a long story.
The ‘what I haven’t figured out’ career-thing scares me, all the time. I have been out of college for 8 years now, and I still feel ‘lost’ when thinking about what I want to do with my life/career. To back up a bit, I went to college for Kinesiology (Exercise Physiology). I picked this major based on my obvious love of exercise and what I thought was my love of science. My initial idea was to become a Physical Therapist- to me this seemed like the perfect job. Once I got deep into my major, I realized that Chemistry and other science courses were not my friend and I struggled. I graduated from the Kinesiology program feeling discouraged. Many of my friends were going on to PT school and I wasn’t. I had no idea what I wanted to do….
I left college and tried personal training for that summer, at a large gym. I liked it, but I wasn’t passionate about working in a big gym and acting ‘sales like’ with the members. Feeling discouraged and needing to make money, my next best bet was to go through a staffing agency and get an office job. I ended up as a receptionist for a year at a software company. It was awful and the people treated me poorly, almost like a servant. I also hated being ‘chained’ to a desk… I am a girl who needs to move! I left after a year and started a different office job in the city as an Administrative Assistant… worked there for a year… and then started thinking about PT school again. At this time I was a little older and thought I could take on the challenge… I left my office job, worked as an aide at a PT clinic and applied to DPT programs. All of this hard work, leaving a good paying job, and ultimately I did not get into DPT school. Here I was again, feeling defeated, but thought ‘at least I tried.’ I thought it must be for a reason… and I moved on. I did not want to work in an office again, but it was my only option to make money at this time. I took on another administrative role at Pharmaceutical company, my best company yet that I had worked at… BUT it was still an office. I worked at this company for 2 years, never really satisfied with what I was doing. I was worth more than this… and this is not what I want out of life.
I am now at a new company, started in December, and while it’s the best company I’ve ever worked at, I’m still not sure what the heck I’m doing here. I feel like time is just passing me by as I sit in a cubicle, wondering what I could do with my life. I honestly don’t know if I will ever make it in ‘corporate America.’ I don’t like being in front of a computer all day, I hate office politics, I don’t like being indoors for 8 hours a day, and I try not to stay past 5 PM (because I have a life and I am training for an Ironman). Frankly, I don’t think I’m cut out for this kind of job. I’m not the ‘norm’ at the office… I take walk breaks/workout breaks at lunch, I bring my own lunch every day, I never take the elevator….being stuck in a cube drives me absolutely bananas.
I have thought for years, what kind of job I can take that’s not a 9-5 office job, and it’s really hard! I need to make a living and I need benefits (although I could always take my hubby’s benefits). My dream job would be to work from home and have my own business. I have pondered going back to school for nutrition, but to become an RD, I would need to take ALL of those science classes all over again, no thanks. Being some kind of nutrition counselor/personal trainer at my own gym, would be ideal… but how the heck do I get there? I know deep in my heart that I am not supposed to work in an office for the rest of my life. There is always that little voice inside my head telling me: “Kristin this is not who you are”.
I am definitely lost.
Have you ever felt like changing your career? What did you do to make life better for yourself?