Hi I’m back!
I was hoping to write a post today about how everything is going for me post IMMT, but that will have to wait…
Yesterday started as a beautiful day… I was looking forward to my long bike ride and headed out for about 50 miles of bliss… until my phone rang… and then it rang again… and again… I was just 10 miles into my ride and I pulled over on the side of the road. I saw a missed called from pretty much every single member of my family and I knew something was wrong. My heart sank. I felt sick to my stomach. I called my husband back, who then told me that my Grandmother had passed away, suddenly and unexpectedly. Hearing the news, I was in shock, not knowing how to comprehend what I just heard. I thought about continuing to ride, until my lovely (smart) husband told me it’s probably not a good idea to ride when I am feeling very upset. He proceeded to pick me up by car and we drove home together. I’m still trying to process this all and feeling heart broken. I know it will take time… time heals all. But man, it’s HARD.
Yesterday all I wanted to do was go for a run after hearing the news…I knew running would help release some of the emotional pain. I threw on my sneakers and headed for the trails, I wanted to just run forever and not stop. For ten miles I ran, and I ran fast.. I didn’t think about my heart rate or my pace.. I just ran… and it felt SO good. My legs felt the best they’ve felt since before IMMT. Like a gazelle I ran through the woods, it felt effortless. I chose to run up a trail I don’t normally go on… it’s a beast of a hill and I usually avoid it, ha. Yesterday felt like the perfect time to give it a try and I was glad I did. I was all along up there at the top, looking at the skyline of Boston, bright blue skies… I said a prayer for my grandmother, telling her I’m sorry she had to go this way, so soon… It was the first time I had cried all day and really just let it go. I really think running is the best kind of therapy, the perfect release.
Later that night, trying to process it all, I finally made a decision on what my plan is for 2015. I have been wanting to sign up for another Ironman since I finished Ironman Mont-Tremblant!.. let’s just say I’m hooked:)
The thing is… for weeks I just didn’t know if 2015 was the right year… I asked myself (and others) if I should just take a year off and try again in 2016. Is my body ready for another IM? I thought about all of the ‘what ifs’ and weighed my options… it even kept me up at night. I also didn’t know which race I would sign up for, IMMT repeat or IMMD (the two within reasonable driving distance). I’m pretty sure I was driving my husband crazy trying to make up my mind! Finally, yesterday, after hearing the news of my Grandma, I took it as a sign… You only have one life, and it does go by fast. You never know what life could bring next week, next month, next year. You need to chase your dreams.
I decided that 2015 WILL be the year to do another Ironman and I am super excited to take on the challenge again! I will be dedicating my training to my grandmother, Gammi:)
I will be racing Ironman Mont-Tremblant 2015 for round two! I hit the registration button late last night, and I can’t wait to do this amazing race all over again!